2009

2009 was definitely full of... everything.

Thank you to those who have been with me through the good and the bad and the mediocre. I genuinely appreciate all of you.


Having no car for a year and 5 months, I realized who my real friends are--those people who didn't care whether you fucked up or not, or whether you were annoying because you constantly needed a ride, and those people who would go out of their way to give me a ride.

SERIOUSLY, who in their right minds would go out of their way to drive somewhere for someone constantly because she needed it? Thank you. If i had money coming out of my ass, I would buy all you guys gas for the rest of your lives. I guess I'll do that when I discover how to shit money. But REALLY, guys, thank you.

I also want to thank those who were not afraid to hurt my feelings. I guess I should say, I want to thank YOU. You know who you are. I'm not sure if you'll read this, but you're the reason I am who I am today. I want to thank you for everything. You've been with me seriously through everything. When things were awful you were there to comfort me, when things were still awful you weren't afraid to hurt my feelings and tell me what was the morally right thing to do. You give me incredible insight and I can't thank you enough for being the person you are. I'm sorry I can't spend New Years with you, but, I don't know. I never celebrate New Years. That's beside the point. I love you, so much. I hate that you live on the other side of the state, longevity-wise.. haha. Does that make sense? .. I think so... tehe. I hope your New Years is amazing. <3>

FAMILY!
Dear Parents,
Thank you. I can't thank you guys enough for what you guys have done for me. Regardless of the early curfew and strict regulations, I understand where you guys are coming from. I'm sorry I let you guys down multiple times, and I promise you guys 2010 will not be full infractions, misdemeanors, or felonies. I love you guys too. Obviously. :>

Little Sister,
I love you. You've grown so much. I'm sorry I made 2 months of your 2009 awful. I probably made more than 2 months awful.. But anyway, be good. Not necessarily good, because I know you're still young and somewhat naive and you're going to want to try different things.. whatever they might be. I'm not here to tell you what you can or can't do, but I want you to know that you have to learn from your own mistakes. Trial and error! I'm not going to be guiding you every step of the way (although sometimes I'd like to) so I want you to learn from your own mistakes, whatever they might be to you. I love you. I hope your 2010 is full of joy, and I pray your career in art prospers. <3

Hehe I realized that I said "I love you" to everybody. Sorry! Super corny. I DO love all you guys, though..



I don't have a New Years Resolution yet.
But I want 2010 to be abundant in accomplishments, friendships, and an ever-so-strong relationship with my family.


Again,
I love you all.

Happy New Years, everybody.

i pray that someday, someone will notice my true colors. and call me out.

Conference?

december 21-24 in sd?

family

i love my family. i accept them for who they are, and regardless of what they do to me, i still love them.

yeah ok, i'll cut the bullshit. switch family with dad. (only applies above)

my dad is crazy. he's so fucking bipolar. i love him to death but at the same time he hurts my family. he holds grudges against us. his own children! his own wife! what the hell?

i dont know any other dad who does not show compassionate love for his family. i know he loves us, but at the same time, like.. could you be any more disrespectful and shit to your family?

he calls us lowclass, cheap, stupid, idiots, and he says we have "no fucking appreciation" for what he does for us. i mean like, i'm sure we'd be more appreciative if he wasn't so goshdamn crazy.

he plays videogames whenever he comes home. is that "cool" for some of you? i dont think so, when he gets all worked up cause the people he's playing with sucks and he's getting hella mad about that shit. you know what? fuck that shit. fuck it all. fuckkk it.

ryan jiang just made me read his blog. he sucks. you suck. just kidding.

going on...

the only contribution my dad makes to this family is money. and he says we spend to much of it. okay, mr. i-spend-2k+-on-cameras-and-i-have-a-super-cool-collection-and-i-send-over-15k+-to-my-rude-ass-family-in-korea-who-actually-have-"nofuckingappreciaion".

i could rant on more. i'm sorry to those who have awful fathers like mine. i know mine isn't as worse as it gets. so, i'm sorry if it sounds like i'm acting like my dad is the worst in the world.

end post. -__-

gobble.

today is the worst.

Turkey Day

Turkey today? Not for me! We're having fish! Wootwoot. -___-

I am cleaning my room. My dad told me I have no personal life until Saturday. I'm going to die. Not really.

Justine is super sick so she got lucky. She doesn't need to do anything!

>[


Bye, world..

breathe in, and out.

i have an incredibly short temper. i've been trying to find my logic in being upset with certain people. sometimes, if i'm in a bad mood, i'll be very short with someone for no particular matter. so i'm trying to find a reason to be upset with that person before i'm mean. if there is no reason, i breathe. and i calm down.

or i smoke. thats better.

im very frusterated. fuck microsoft and your stupid serial numbers that can't be undone so i can put in a different number. ryan, you made me upset too. not mad. upset.


very upset.


i have no stogs and neither do justine so i'm going to try to sleep.
bye, world. off to lalaland.

theres always a million reasons not to do something, but when in doubt, DO IT

we had a psych test today, but the fire alarm went off and when the class got back in our teacher says that the alarm was a disturbance so he gave us all A's. woot woot! :>

time to do homework.





on the other hand..
GO AWAY. LEAVE ME ALONE. I mean you're nice and all but.. GO AWAY!!!

in our defense

it rained last night! wootwoot.

today was incredibly unproductive. minus the cleaning room part.

bring on the rain

i think rain would be romantic if it were warmer and felt like it was hugging you.
kissing in the rain is not romantic. it's uncomfortable. and cold.


it's been really cold lately. i wish the rain would come already.


p.s. happy 2 months wootwoot

swirl me around your room with feeling

he's extra special. we were best friends for about a year.. i dont know why it took me that long to see him in a different way, but i'm glad i finally did. he knows practically everything about me. he knows what i like & he especially knows what i dont like. which is a lot of things, actually. i hate green onions. and almost all vegetables.. and a ton of other stuff. he doesn't trip too hard about that. tehe. i absolutely adore the way my hands fits under his. and when he takes me home i hold on to him cause i really don't want to go home.. i want to kidnap him and hide him in my closet.. forever!! hehe.. he never complains about me, when i think he should. well, he shouldnt, i guess.. but sometimes i feel like i complain too much, or i'm being too needy, or annoying, or.. immature. and i feel like he should be complaining about me, but he doesnt. i love it when its cold and we kiss and his lips are warm and mine are cold and it feels good. sometimes i get mad at little stupid shit, but i think its because i'm trying to find something wrong in this relationship. it just feels too perfect. we get along so well. he never pressures me to do anything. like staying out late. hes caring. hes very unselfish. he laughs at me when i act like a dummy. and he laughs at me when im super happy. he makes my friends laugh. he makes good impressions on people i introduce him to. my best friends love him, my mom loves him, and i love him. i am in love.

research paper..

someone tell me what sort of subject could possibly take up 10-12 pages?

thank you.

When it rains it pours..

The internet is currently not working but I wanted to blog so I’m blogging on WORD and then I’ll post this once I get home.. anyway…

I’m in Experimental Psychology. Its really cold. It’s nice to have some rain though.. after no rain for so long..

No one is at class today. I think it’s because it’s raining.

Happy one month to me and Ryan! Woot.

I’ve seen him for 41 days straight as of today.. wow..

So after math I saw Ryan and then Dennis, Ryan, and I had a stog and dropped dennis off at class and then we went to Denny’s and got hot chocolate and hash browns with cheez. i lub potatoes. :> and then I went to class early so he could go to school.

Funnn day so far…

Not going to lecture again.

I don’t play that walk in the rain game.

And this is perfect weather to nap in! :> with a cup of hot chocolate.

Dennis and I are going to be homo and nap and have hot chocolate. :>

Once I make my piggy a new cage, I want her to have a friend. A white one!

I’m going to watch house :].

yum..

thanks, justine!


i'm at tap.
ryan's sitting next to me.
he is doing his chem homework.

nghia made me an almond milk tea no ice mango jelly HEATED.

very interesting... thanks nghia! :3



i failed my english midterm today. :<



over and out.

thizz..

ryan popped todayy

he's hella cute when he's on. but i think i just think that cause he's my boyfriend. hahaha


and then he burned. and burned again.
that nigga stays burning -___-



overall good day. :>
other than the fact that i got HELLA bad cramps/stomach pains when i wanted to eat pho.
NOT good. ryan wasted a good 6..7 dollars? :< :< :< <3 sorry. i feel so wasteful.
but it was hella bad. I FELT LIKE I WAS GOING TO DIE!!

i found out it was because i was hella cold.
i went home and sat in my bed and felt so much better. :>

heated blanky ftw!




i think i will pop. i just do not know when.... o_O






arf!

soo incredibly true...

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Random thoughts from people our age…

1. I wish Google Maps had an “Avoid Ghetto” routing option.
2. More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can’t wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that’s not only better, but also more directly involves me.
3. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you’re wrong.
4. I don’t understand the purpose of the line, “I don’t need to drink to have fun.” Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and sticks when they’ve invented the lighter?
5. Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you’re going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you’re crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.
6. That’s enough, Nickelback.
7. I totally take back all those times I didn’t want to nap when I was younger.
8. Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the “people you may know” feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose not to be friends with?
9. Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn’t work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ’s. We just figured it out. Today’s kids are soft.
10. There is a great need for sarcasm font.
11. Sometimes, I’ll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first saw it.
12. I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I’ll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone’s laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I’m still the only one who really, really gets it.
13. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
14. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
15. I think part of a best friend’s job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.
16. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to finish a text.
17. A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.
18. Was learning cursive really necessary?
19. Lol has gone from meaning, “laugh out loud” to “I have nothing else to say”.
20. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.
21. Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron test is absolutely petrifying.
22. My brother’s Municipal League baseball team is named the Stepdads. Seeing as none of the guys on the team are actual stepdads, I inquired about the name. He explained, “Cuz we beat you, and you hate us.” Classy, bro.
23. Whenever someone says “I’m not book smart, but I’m street smart”, all I hear is “I’m not real smart, but I’m imaginary smart”.
24. How many times is it appropriate to say “What?” before you just nod and smile because you still didn’t hear what they said?
25. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!
26. Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using ‘as in’ examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss’s last name to an attorney and said “Yes that’s G as in…(10 second lapse)..ummm…Goonies”
27. What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?
28. While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it…thanks Mario Kart.
29. MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
30. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.
31. I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.
32. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.
33. I would like to officially coin the phrase ‘catching the swine flu’ to be used as a way to make fun of a friend for hooking up with an overweight woman. Example: “Dave caught the swine flu last night.”
34. I can’t remember the last time I wasn’t at least kind of tired.
35. Bad decisions make good stories
36. Whenever I’m Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don’t mind if I do!
37. Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?
38. If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring would probably just be completely invisible.
39. Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I’m from, this shouldn’t be a problem….
40. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you’ve made up your mind that you just aren’t doing anything productive for the rest of the day.
41. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don’t want to have to restart my collection.
42. There’s no worse feeling than that millisecond you’re sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.
43. I’m always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.
44. “Do not machine wash or tumble dry” means I will never wash this ever.
45. I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV.. There’s so much pressure. ‘I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren’t watching this. It’s only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?’
46. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What’d you do after I didn’t answer? Drop the phone and run away?
47. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
48. When I meet a new girl, I’m terrified of mentioning something she hasn’t already told me but that I have learned from some light internet stalking.
49. I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it’s on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.
50. Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles…
51. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.
52. Sometimes I’ll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.
53. It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.
54. I keep some people’s phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
55. Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn’t know what do to with it.
56. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey – but I’d bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time…
57. My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day “Dad what would happen if you ran over a ninja?” How the hell do I respond to that?
58. It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.
59. I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.
60. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.
61. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.
62. The other night I ordered takeout, and when I looked in the bag, saw they had included four sets of plastic silverware. In other words, someone at the restaurant packed my order, took a second to think about it, and then estimated that there must be at least four people eating to require such a large amount of food. Too bad I was eating by myself. There’s nothing like being made to feel like a fat bastard before dinner"

turn off the lights..

goodnight.

BRING ON THE STARS.

Artsy Partsy

"We artists are indestructible, even in a prison cell or a concentration camp I would be almighty in my own world of art. Even if I had to paint my pictures with my wet tongue on the dusty floor of my cell." -Pablo Picasso




I will get back to you, my first love. Please don't punish me for neglecting you!

bones

I am currently watching Bones with my sister.
It's so interesting!

And I'm sick. I'm goign to drink OJ like.. errydae. D:


Ryan's having a thizzknock kick it thing tomorrowww.
but its in the morning.
sigh.

that guy....


SHOWER!


woof.

don't waste your time

i'm at school waiting for class at 10.

i had class at 6:40 and now i'm just chilln cause we got out at 7:40.


i really want a banana hot chocolate.
and i need christine giang.


i'm back on sufu! thanks to exteeng.


i'm bored. there are a bunch of people (guys) around me and they all look like nerds. except for one. he looks filipino. i think he's in a frat? but thats kinda weird cause i dont think there are frats at community colleges. anywayyy i think theyre waiting for a class. i feel kind of lonely.


woof.